God, you guys know how to make me cry! I've just received an e-mail from a fan of this blog that really made me think:

I've just finished watching Freaky Friday (yes, pretty old movie but I still love it) and it made me think about you. All I'm trying to say is, you have so much in you - the talent to act and sing, the pretty face and the youth. Don't let all of them go to waste because it would be a real shame. I've always rooted for you and it makes me happy if you're living your life in the right track. I'm not saying you're not and neither am I trying to sound saintly. I, like every of your fans, only want the best for you.

The wind of change is always blowing and change is good but dont let it lead you to the wrong path, =)

Sorry if I sound nag-ish. Just wanted to let you know what's on my mind.

Have a great weekend.

Regards,
Claudine

There is such sincerity, such sincerity in the tone of voice here. Such love. IF ONLY you knew how devoid my life was of love, you would understand what this type of comment means to me. It means the whole world; more than that ... I mean, it doesn't mean more than my gulfstream (here I want to digress for a minute: NOTHING, once you're a celebrity and fucking rich, means as much as your gulfstream. Private air travel is the one thing you value above EVERYTHING ELSE ... and as I said, it is your cocoon from the rest of the world, even parked at Trenton, NJ. Even parked in the middle-a-fuckin'-Manhattan at La Guardia, it somehow saves you, offers you comfort from the shit around you. I mean, you gotta be a billionaire to have one ...) but it does mean more than the screen performances, than the pretty-in-pink bullshit you gotta go through every day.

I slipped off the waggon, and ya', I'm high again. HIIIIIIIIIIIGH AS A FUCKIN' KIIIIITE!! In fact, I never stopped slippin' off the wagon, I just tell that to the producers, the judges, the FUCKIN' PUBLIC 'cause they never get what it is to live the 24/7-JETSET-INthafuckin mix lifestyle that I live. DAMN, THE CRAP!

OK, well I'm writing this from HERE, aboard the private jet and Gooooooood it looks like an ordinary life outside. Tell me My Darlings, DID ANYONE like my poem? Tell me, My Darlings, what does it feel like not to be famous?

I Love You All, Really,

Your Anonymous Celebrity 'x'

Comments

[Good Boy Gone Bad]

sings "When i grow up, I wanna be famous, I wanna be a star, wanna be in movies..."

But I don't even know where/how to start. What it feels like not being famous? Your life is dull, nobody even wanna get to know you, whatever you say people will go "uh ok whateva."

Damn!

[Cole]

Sometimes you can be surrouned by thousands of people, but still feel completly alone... like at an university for example. Waiting for success to happen or wondering if it ever will?

[Stac]

What it feels not to be famous?

I dont think anyone can answer that correctly, if they never experienced fame. It like asking someone how does it feel not having cancer..In order to not feel, you need to feel. You know what I mean?...Dont be so focused on the "fame" anymore. Live your life the best way you can. When you wake up in the morning, wake up as that girl from L.I. who had the ambitious/drive of being one of the greatest ever...Dont let fame dictate how your journey and destination meet...

Stac

[May Zhee]

Being not famous sucks because when you say you want to shag Christian Bale, that's about as far as it goes.

Aww, there are many sincere people out there who care for you! ;) And it's strange how sincerity comes more often from strangers than people close to you.

[Couthie]

Linds ;)

[Laine]

do you remember your life before you got famous? for me, being not famous, i have a 9-5 job, i get stuck in traffic congestion during the rush hours everyday. occasionally, me n me friends treat ourselves with expensive food. on a daily basis, we hav our meals at hawkers center where we get to eat a variety of v cheap and delicious food. i don't know, somehow, i am happy with my life and at the same time, i really do hope i'll be able to make it big some day in the future!

[Sheryl0202]

Being in not famous basically means no one cares about what you do as long as you don't do something crazy in the public! It also means most likely you have a 9-5 job, earning average salary and once in a while you buy some designers good to make yourself feel happy!

No paparazi following you around, i suppose that is true freedom as well!

[jessT]

it sucks not to be famous, you're being treated lika fly on the wall. but believe me gurl, sometimes being famous can get in the way of our personal lives, no?

hmm.. looks like there will ALWAYS be two sides of things =)